Do Over | 24 Days of Modedeviebel

Hello and welcome to Day Nineteen of 24 Days of Modedeviebel (a day late.. oops!) I am currently sat on my sofa watching none other than Home Alone listening to my pup snore beside me.

This weekend has been fairly laid back. I have spent the majority of it over at my dads house, decorating my room and writing a few blogpost here and there whilst waiting for the paint to dry. Nonetheless, my bedroom walls aren't the only thing I seem to be refurbishing at the moment.

As you may or may not know, I have been dealing with anxiety and it's many knock off effects for over three years now. I am not sure what has triggered this change and everyday I am learning new ways to cope with it. However, these past few months haven't been the best they could've been. A lot has happened that I won't bore you with but at one stage I was ready to give up. 

Therefore I made the decision to try a new medication used for anxiety and panic attacks called Citalopram. The first week or so was hard I'm not going to lie. My mood was low and I constantly felt frustrated with myself when I couldn't complete certain tasks and goals I had set for myself such as getting to college which is not the best thing considering it's nearly Christmas. Despite this, I am now thankfully starting to get past that stage and see the many positive effects of Citalopram. My mood is up and I am more optimistic and hopeful about each day as they come.

Something has clicked and unlike the past, I feel as though it has stuck. I am more determined than ever to finish college with the grades I need to get into university and to regain the social life anxiety has took from me. I am able to tell myself that if I have a bad day, that's okay. This happening now but I'll get over it. My life is going through a really big change and again, that's okay. I take each day, hour, minute and second as they come. If I can't do something at that particular time then fine. I will try again and again until I achieve something good in my day that I can take on to my next as a positive and uplifting reinforcement. 

"She stood in the storm and when the wind did not blow her way she adjusted her sails"

I honestly feel like I am having a mental renovation! My time for 'do over' has started and I couldn't be more pleased.